And the plot thickens . . .

I'm now privy to the teenage dirt going on in the neighborhood. It's like some hardcore ShowTime drama, containing drugs, alcohol, sexual blackmail, almost murder, and probably gang activity. He's now suspended for skipping and being in a car that almost ran over a school security guard. He doesn't realize that his actions not only harm himself, but the whole family as well.

Bloated.

I have yet to work on my goals . . .

Doldrums.

My brother cooled off and is now safe at home - court date is the end of november.

Ugh, I'm behind on my work goals (secretly I was hoping to have a job before I really had to work on my goals, but...you know)

Going to the Mt. Dora Art Fest tomorrow!

You know it's going to be an interesting day when you are told not to turn your back on a child because she is violent and will attack your face. I have to say, I worked with some really good teachers that day. Spending the day with children who are severely handicaped was just nerve wracking and depressing all at the same time. Almost all of them were nonverbal and each had their own behavior fixation (tapping, compulsive eating, rocking, hand flapping). What I find most disheartening is their lack of self presevation - eating rocks, banging head on the ground. It was a new experience and I have a greater appreciation for what I have and empathy for those with special needs and their caretakers.

I spent my birthday working, but when I came home my sister prepared an amazing Italian meal topped off with cheesecake. Delish

I have an urge to spend money, buy new clothes, and watch clerks 2. Pillowpants.

Gas stations are freaking me out lately. I was refueling after work, when some type of shenanigans were going on at the pump next to me. A lady whipped out her chain and went to attack another car - the car sped out and was unharmed. Note to self refuel somewhere else. By the way, gas prices? ugh.

Woke up with a scratchy throat, congestion, and achy head hope it's passing.

Surprise, my brother got caught with drug para. Yep. I came home to find out my brother had skipped school and been taken to Juvenille detention. My parents picked him up, and in the heat of argument, he decided to run away. A missing juvenille report later, and we are hoping he comes home before tomorrow. He is so lucky he's still under 18.

The swine flu is among us . . . my sister is contaminated (and I think my dog is a carrier).

Today was a really easy day. I was at Metro,which is a really large school, but I kinda like it (brand new buildings and awesome technology). I also met a really cool chick, a ucf intern, who caught me up on some ed stuff.(I miss being back in school) I floated between a few classrooms and ran some errands. The day just flew by - not too shabby.

My sister (the healthy one) made a fantastic dinner of faux chicken and dumplings with amazing split pea soup (which is currently my favorite). Ahh, so good. She left me an hours worth of dishes, but it was so worth it. Now I'm definitely going to have to get some exercise in tomorrow, lol.

♥Sometime you just want to punch someone, lol.

♥Why am I walking like something is stuck up my butt? I threw my back out a little bit. Standing requires the use of muscles not usually used = pain. I also managed to slice my thumb while taking out the garbage(or the body bags, as I like to call them, because they are gimoungous drumliners that weigh as much as a small person)

♥I know this is completely lame, but I kinda bummed out that I'm getting over the hill of my 20s. I shouldn't let it bother me, right? Older and wiser, and all that crap.

♥Really feel like taking tomorrow off, but I'm going to be good and earn some money. Shake my money maker. Good God I need a real job. A nine to fiver with weekends off, earning enough money to get by comfortably. Preferably, one that I enjoy. But the more I talk to people the more I realize that work on a whole sucks. Yeah, you have those shiny, happy moments were you feel like you've made a positive impact on someone or thing, but you're always going to have to deal with deadlines, bosses, and frustrating people. It's truly a balancing act and requires strong positive thinking.

♥"She says that love is for fools that fall behind"

♥Halloween costume ideas: Moulin Rouge can can dancer, Queen of Hearts, Pirate, 20s Flapper

Have you ever seen a gasoline standoff? I can truthfully answer that question with an "O, yeah". On the way home from work the other day, I stopped to get some fuel. I pulled into a pump, got out of the car, and began quenching my car's thirst. I look over to my right and there are 2 cars halfway in a pump stall. At first I thought maybe those guys are friends and just pulled up to talk. Then I hear one guy call the other an infant and that he wasn't moving because he had the right of way. They were just staring at each other from inside their respective cars with the windows rolled down. (you know what, I don't think people "roll" their windows down anymore-it's all about the power windows)Anyway, the men shouted things at each other every once in a while between hard stares and cell phone calls. While I was curious to see who would break this ridiculous game first, I decided my time was much more valuable and left. ♥

I'm so f*cking pissed with myself right now. Yep, It's 8:30 a.m. where am I suppose to be? Subbing. I was suppose to get up @ 6 this morning. I swear I don't remember hearing the alarm go off. I know it must have gone off though and I unconsciously turned it off and went back to sleep (until 8:20!). SHIT. In my defense though, it is hard to work in the a.m. after closing shift. Aaarrrgg! Damn it! I just lost money and my rep. Thankfully,there won't be a penalty for a first time cancel.

In the driveway I find my parents loading their car with clothes and toiletries. As they were walking out the door,they mentioned they were going to spend tonight and Sunday in St. Augustine. They just up and left the house for "St. Augustine" (who knows if that's where they are really going). In such a wierd giddy mood too, like they were off to have tons of sex or something. Ugh.

What am I to do with an empty house all to myself? Watch horror movies and scare the crap out of myself. Hmm. Maybe not such a good idea. I'll be expecting some chainsaw wielding maniac to come bustin' through my bedroom window in the middle of the night. Instead, I'll convert the house into a nudist colony, surprising my family upon their return. That sounds like a plan, lol.

Damn it. They took the toothpaste.