Good news: I am not pregnant. . . What Now?!

So today didn't exactly go as expected. I had a nice Sunday cookout @ a friend's new house planned. But on the way there, I felt incredibly lightheaded to the point where I actually thought I might pass out. I've never passed out before and it scared the shit out of me. I'm glad I made it safely to W's house. I tried so hard to let it pass and pretend I was fine, but 5 minutes into our car trip, she could tell I was not feeling well.

I told her that I didn't think I would make it. I tried so hard to focus on my breathing, praying I wouldn't pass out in my friend's car (how horrible that would be!). There came a time where i was seriously considering the ER (which would be a last resort, only because I couldn't fathom how expensive that trip would be). Luckily, after a few tears, focused breathing, and orange juice we made it to a clinic (where I waited forever!). The spell lasted a couple of hours. I'm hoping it was low blood sugar, iron deficiency, panick attack or something simple, but who knows.

My blood pressure was normal and he didn't think it was vertigo or a circulatory issue. The doctor recommended running some routine blood work type stuff in the next week or so (which because of my phobia of needles has me freaked out). To top it off, the visit was quite expensive, as I am sure the tests will be too. I currently hold no insurance and am hanging financially on a very thin thread. fml.

I am so thankful that I have such a wonderful friend to take care of me while I was such a mess! And I love the fact that when I came home later that night and tried to tell my parents what happened (yes, I cried again) the first thing mom said was, "Are you pregnant?" (I love my mom, but what the hell?!, I hope she was joking).

no news is good news. not eggzacklee . . .

received the rejection letter in the mail. only a few weeks later than expected, lol. maybe they were really grappling with the decision (uh-huh, that's it). anyway, there are only a few weeks left before the beginning of a new year. hope to get more calls (and offers) in the very near future! pleasepleaseplease i am bored out of my mind and realize that it takes $ to do practically anything. thus, i have watched almost all of season 2 of the office on netflix, cleaned out 1/2 of the garage (2nd cleaning scheduled for next weekend), and have gone through a few good books. fml